Here’s what I learned: It doesn’t take long for the thin veneer of civilization to corrode.These are the things that have fallen away for me in just a few days of living alone:
- Showering daily
- Looking in the mirror
- Leaving the house
- Anything resembling an eating plan
- A sleep schedule
- Wearing a bra
- Looking at a clock
On the other hand, there’s been a sharp uptick in certain other activities:
- Silent weeping, mostly related to TV watching
- Frigging around
I checked online for symptoms of depression and except for those related to personal hygiene (and really, it’s only me and the dog and the dog doesn’t mind) I don’t fit the profile. So this is just whining self-pity. And I hate that in a person. Under normal circumstances, I try my best to frame things in a positive way and I try to encourage people around me to do that , too.
So I figured that i could use a little push and I started to look around for online affirmations that I could use to buck me up and keep me thinking positive.
But this isn’t going to work. What kind of person could look at this and take it seriously? Not the kind of person I am, that’s for sure. And the affirmation apps for the iPhone are even worse.
So it looks like I will have to dig myself out of my own hole without the help of cyberspace. I don’t know. Maybe I’d feel better if I knew where to get good Chinese food.